If only dreams came true................

I had a dream...........sigh........

It started with me playing tennis. I was at the top of my game. I was in the zone! I was all over the place!! Picking up unbelievable short shots making awesome winners!!! I was serving aces at the speed of light!!! I was slamming over heads, dropping short balls, zinging winners cross court...........I WAS UN-F***ING -BELIEVABLE!!!!!
Then dream turned over to my family in a counseling session. I never saw the doctor's face but I heard his soothing voice. He had a very calming affect on me. The next thing you know he's in my bed. He has one leg slung over my legs and his arm across my back. His hand is caressing my shoulder and he is whispering something about my ????mother???? (WTF?)  He stops talking. I  turn and look at him. I think to myself ...OH MY GOD he is DROP DEAD gorgeous. ( I know him from somewhere) He smiles and I smile back and ask what's wrong. He thinks I'm so beautiful; I've  made him lose his train of thought. I lean into him and ........

 Damn ..........grrrrrr........

I played tennis this morning and at times I DID impress myself but nothing like my dream.......sigh.........

I come home and try to find the man in my dreams. As it turns out it's the guy from The Mentalist.  Now he is a hunky looking guy but I'm not much on blonds.  I prefer men with darker features.

I find myself wondering what it all means???

 Not really caring anymore "what it all means", I lay down with Baby for nap time and try as I might I can not recapture where Simon and I were in my early morning dream......

If only dreams came true..............sigh...............

CocoRosie - Lemonade

So TE (the engineer, my hubby) says to me, "be careful what you say on the internet. You've been known to speak without thinking and you talk too much". Hummmm.........

We were watching Dexter tonight and his sister had stopped drinking and smoking and chasing men..........she was spewing off at the mouth and Ol' Dexter says almost the same thing as TE only he's not talking about the internet...he's just talking in general. The sis says since she is not smoking, drinking nor chasing men she should have at least one vice. I agree......I've been thinking that I'm not fun anymore. I had said I was going to have sex with strange men but TE was gonna get mad about that since I don't have it with him either...........so............ I think I'll enjoy the only vice I have left..........spewing off at the mouth

TE also thinks all I do is play games on the computer. But I really do quite a bit of research. Read on......

My brother put this video up on Facebook the other day. Stupid me.......I had to press the button. The song has haunted me ever since. I've done some research on these girls and they are really an enigma to me.
Listen if you dare.......

They are an Indie band. Their genre of music is called freak folk.  Bob and I had this discussion on what exactly Indie meant. I always thought that it was a movie or musician that was not well known. As it turns out that may not always be the case. He says it's just that the companies that produce the music or movie may not be well known.

Their real names are Bianca "Coco" and Sierra "Rosie" Casady. Sierra is the dark haired one.She also has the sweetest singing voice. Bianca's voice is very unusual. I can't quite decide how to describe it. It's not unpleasant........It's just like a little girls voice talking.....but scratchier??? Maybe a bit like Janis Joplin? I don't know, you'll just have to listen to the song.

In the interviews that I've watched they don't seem to be comfortable with it all yet. I've seen some post that say they're high but who knows for sure? I thought their face make up was unique and when I googled them FaceCulture came up. I thought that was why they were made up like they were......because they belonged to a group called FaceCulture. As it turns out that is a magazine that I think specifically interviews Indie bands.

One other song that I liked was Werewolf. I also listened to Jesus Loves Me and that one was disturbing. I'm sure that they are sending a message........I'm just not sure what the message is. They have a few CDs. Grey Oceans seems to be the latest and that is the CD that Lemonade is on.

Hopefully putting all this in writing will now allow me to sleep in peace..........goodnite

The task at hand.....

Right now I'm working on my friends bio. I'm not having a difficult time but it takes time to find just the right character to portray them.

A large majority of us have known each other for 20 years. Some have come into the our circle more recently but all are loved just the same

My son was looking over my shoulder trying to figure out what I was doing and finally got the fact that I'm blogging. He says no one will want to read a story. I told him our lives are much better than a soap opera. Since I'm creating names, I'll give my son one. He's the musician. He will become Bob as in Bob Dylan. The picture is real...........he is the unknown musician.....kind of like the unknown comic.


anyway......................

With all the reality shows out there I don't know why someone wouldn't be interested in what we are doing. I suppose I think we are way more important than what we really are......... but I do know some people will enjoy my ramblings and most of them will be my friends.Who knows?? Maybe I'll even meet a few new ones along the way.

A Bit of History

My eldest son is 36. He is an alcoholic. He blames his problems in life on me for not buying him a surfboard when he was 13. Right now he lives with his dad and step-mom in Tennessee.They are 7 Day Adventist and live in a commune. He has been there for a few years now and is sober.

My second is 33 and has been in and out of institutions since the age of 16. He is now serving time in a USP in Pennsylvania for bank robbery. He thinks he is Frank Abagnale Jr (the guy in "Catch Me if You Can"). He doesn't place any blame on his momma. He actually has my name tattooed in a cross down the middle of his back with the saying "Momma tried" along his shoulders. He has been out of prison long enough to procreate. He has 2 biological children and one that we accept as our own. His next release date is 2012.

My daughter is 23 and a drug addict. Her drugs of choice are Roxie's and Xanax. She is in a residential treatment center at the present time. She has a child that is for the moment in my custody (don't know why she trusts this household). She blames me for her addiction because I gave her everything her heart desired. I actually gave her more than her heart desired.....but that is what co-dependency is all about.... isn't it?

My youngest (and my only hope of winning this game called "good parenting") is 20 and headed off to a 4 year university this fall. He will be majoring in Music Composition. He's not old enough yet to know that I screwed him up too.

My husband is not always available emotionally or physically. What more can you say....he's an engineer.

As for me,I am 53 years old and have been married twice. The first marriage lasted off and on for 4 years. I married when I was 16. I'm presently married now for 28 years. I work part time as a tax preparer. My hobbies are taking care of others and playing tennis. If I didn't have someone to take care of ........well........I'll just say, I am seeking help with my co-dependency. Teaching an old dog new tricks is kind of rough.

That's my life in a nut shell.